Mine have been seriously lacking recently! I saw a bunch of women on Tuesday at Grey's preschool orientation whom I hadn't seen in a long while. They were all happy to see me, kept asking about the baby. And there, you see, there's the rub. I was fine until I had to start answering baby questions ... I get so cranky about it! They're always the same questions (when are you due?, do you know what you're having?, oh, you must be so excited!), which is understandable but pretty boring to keep answering. For the life of me, I just can't dredge up the excitement. I'm looking forward to the baby, but the weeks between now and then yawn open like a huge chasm that I can't jump, and every inch of it is filled with discomfort, anxiety, and impatience that I have to crawl through.
Which led me this afternoon to an overall review of the whole social thing and my place in it. I definitely have to do something about finding some new friends, since S. is eventually going to sell her house and disappear to the ends of the earth. But how do you find someone who's that good a fit with you? It's a lot of trial and error, and I'm just not in the mood to waste time on banalities. Especially when I have had such trouble keeping in touch with my existing friends this summer. The boys go to bed, and pretty much all I want to do is sleep.
All of which sort of puts any strenuous effort to find new compatible friends on temporary hold until I have more enthusiasm for social interaction in general. Personally, if I didn't have children, I'd be happy to hibernate and see no one for the next 5-7 weeks! I'm hoping after that I'll have, if not more energy, at least more interest in the outside world.
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